I feel like no matter what, I'm in the wrong here. I just wish that they would be happy I wanted to try instead of picking at me. And I can't say anything or Mary will just say she didn't know I was going to be so sensitive about it and next time she just won't say anything. I know it. The attitude will be that *I'm* reacting wrong.
Then Matt called me and asked me if I wanted them (he and his girlfriend) to come over and keep me company and bring pizza. I turned them down because I'm scared to meet his girlfriend. Because from all I've heard, she's awesome. Like super super mega awesome. And I am not. And so I am scared to meet her.
I have lots to do and it's already late. I'm not getting to sleep any time soon and I'll have to get up early tomorrow and then I have to work the next day and right now I just feel like crying some more and going to bed.