June 19th, 2003

forget me nots

dream: steve, ryan, bed, desi, slush, frank

crazy dreams last night...

Cast list for easy identifying of everyone in this buncha dreams

once again Steve and me and Ryan. and a bed. but as always, there wasnt anything dirty about it... all I can figure is that I associate a bed as a place of intimacy whether it be sexual or not... cause that has been where I have had many intimate conversations, both on, or in a bed with someone...
anyway so we were all in Stev's room and talking and such and Steve said something to me and I laughed and I leaned over to reach somehting on the floor and had to slide off the bed to get it cause it was too far... and then Ryan took my spot. ok here is where I should probably explain where we were positioned or that just doesnt sound right at all...

I was kind of sitting leaning on one side of the bed, sitting up against the wall... and Steve was sitting crosslegged right below my feet (probably mid to end of bed on that same side as me) facing the closet... I cant really remember where Ryan was prior to this... but anyway so I moved for a sec and Ryan took my spot except he layed on his stomach and had his legs across the bed behind Steve... and so I said ok watever I dont care and lay across him on my back so my legs were across his back...
thats all I canr eally remember to that one... this theme seems to pop up a lot...

and then there was this other one where I wasin this yard with this little girl (asian?) and I was taking some pictures for her and then we went in her house and I was talking to her mother... and I told her that I would come back later or the next day to bring her her pictures... and she started signing at me and the little girl said that the mother was deaf... and I wa telling her that I had been teaching my little brother some signs...

then I was somewhere else and I ended up at what was supposed to be Frank's house I think and there were all these people there and Desi was there and then Desi wasn't there...
I was wearing like 3 different shirts a see through one with a couple different sweaters over it and then I took the one sweater off and it was on the floor next to where I was sitting. and I was sitting there with frank and I dont really know what was going on, except I was unhappy about something...
and he kissed me but one of his teeth was loose and he said I hurt it and then he was wiggling one of his top teeth and he pulled it out and gave it to me and I thought it was a little icky but I put it in my pocket... and then he was being all distant and strange because this group of people got there and I was gettig ready to leave because I had to drive home and I had Desi to take home too and he wouldnt kiss me... and I was sad and asked him "what did you have me come here for then?? why am I even here?" and then I left, and slammed the door on the way out... and I walked to my car which was parked in a bunch of mud and Desi was in the front sleeping and there was a baby girl who looked like Desi's sister Adrian strapped into a seat in the back...
all of this part had a slightly dark/chilly/empty/wintery feeling to it...

then i was driving and I was in this weird dirty looking city place and there were train tracks everywhere and weird looking people and I was going to ask one of them how to get home...

and I think thats where the dream ended.
forget me nots

unexpected Mike V [photos]

very odd.
today out of nowhere somone I hadn't seen in at least 3 years showed up on my doorstep...
so I hung out with Mike today... we drove around some, caught up, hung out at his friends house... I took pictures...
he actually works pretty well in black and white...



he always comes across somewhat... I dont know... dumbass white boy... I dont really know how to describe it...
but he's not really... hes pretty well educated and hre and there will give himself away with some of the words he uses and the conversations he's capable of having... I dont know if I think its a good thing or a bad thing... that most of the time he comes across that way... I guess if he managed to be both a little better...

either way
it was a nice, though very unexpected, day...