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lazy Saturday

On the whole, it was not a bad Saturday. I did have a touch of a migraine for a good portion of it, unfortunately. But on the good side, I slept in and got enough sleep. I lazed about for most of the day, talked to the Yeti, watched New Girl, took a very very very long bath, and then watched two movies.

And what is really awesome, is that I still have two more days off! This pleases me. Tomorrow I will have to be more ambitious. There is undoubtedly shopping to be done. I don't know if my grandma will let me just go for her or if she will insist on going. It was terribly cold today. I think it's going to be slightly better tomorrow but not by a whole lot.

One of my windblocking panels on my porch came down. So I had to reattach it. That was a little bit more difficult than I expected it to be. So I ended up using a slightly larger wood screw to do it. But I think it will hold better now. Hopefully that will help with Kitty Friend's overall comfort levels. I mean, it can only help so much. Because it's really cold. But that combined with his straw filled house and his heating pad should definitely keep him warmer.

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morning happens so early

Today is going to be a very long work day. In fact, this week is going to be a very long work week! I have a lot of overtime to make up for because I wasn't able to get as many hours last week as I would have liked. I stayed up late late talking to the Yeti. And it seemed like a great idea at the time! But now, now it feels like it was a bad idea for my overall well-being. I ended up with only around five hours of sleep. And beginning part wasn't good really. It was kind of restless. And after an hour or so, I got up to take a tablet that I can't remember the name of because I'm so tired. But it is the thing that I take when my legs are feeling all restless and I can't seem to stop flip flopping when I'm trying to sleep. It will come back to me. Maybe after I post this. Which would be the least optimal time. Magnesium! That's what it is!

I was going to put chili in the crockpot this morning but I somehow did not have enough time or ambition to do so. So maybe I will do that tomorrow morning? I will have to eat something at some point though. I bought a lot of breakfast burritos so those are in my freezer. I don't know when I will have time to actually make one. I will have an hour in between the overtime and when I start my regular shift but I was going to go to my grandmas. I will find a way to both eat and go to my grandma's. Maybe I'll take a breakfast burrito with me! Who knows? This is probably not such an important thing for me to waste so much energy trying to figure it out right now. That is several hours away.

I don't really have too much else of note today. Yesterday was kind of a lazy lonely day for most of it. I went to Walmart and I got to hang out with Mikale a little bit in the evening. My head didn't hurt. That was good. And at the end of the night, not only did I talk to the Yeti for a while, I also watched a little bit of TV! I caught up on my episode of izombie, and also watched one of the five or six episodes of new girl that somehow appeared without me noticing.

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headachey saturday

I woke up this morning with a headache. And nothing I wanted to throw at it seemed to help.  so that sucked. Because it meant that it stuck around all day. On the bright side, I did have the chance to shower for a change. And not only that, I washed my hair and I shaved my legs! How about that! I was going to put on makeup but then I felt yucky and just thought fuck it.

I went to Kroger and mostly impulse bought a bunch of food. That hopefully I can manage to not eat instantly. I have been awful this week PMSing like crazy and just wanting to eat all the things. All of them. And I have been so irritable! I also got my grandma a gallon of milk and took that over to her. And when I was there, I help her out with some things. Took out trash, scooped the litter boxes, made the bed, hung out with her for a while.

I picked up Mikale on my way home and he hung out in my attic live streaming the drawing of one of his comics. I have better internet. Plus I think his dad was being a tool. I also repainted my nails with the magic nail polish. And now they are lovely again. I had peeled it all off yesterday.

I talked to the Yeti most of the day, and that was nice. We have a lot of things in common. I dig it.

Tonight, I went to see Room. It was good. I'm glad because I had really high hopes having loved the book.

It's a little after one now and I hope I don't sleep in too late tomorrow. I don't want to waste the whole day. I have a lot of overtime coming up next week and the week is going to feel endless. At least I suspect so. So I want to squeeze every last drop out of my day of freedom. Especially because today kind of sucked because of my headache.

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long time without writing again

Isn't it always though? I've been really bad about journaling for a very very long time. I do tend to post on Twitter quite a bit and for the last couple of years I have been taking nightly notes in a small booklet calendar. So that amounts to usually four or five lines about the day. Which is better than nothing, right?

So I'm thinking that I might try to do this through talk to text. It's not perfect, but again I'm thinking that it's better than nothing. And it might get me journaling a little more. I'm not very often in front of a real computer (at least not aside from work) and typing things out on my phone is very long and tedious. But really, with the exception of needing to do some correcting as I go, talk to text is not bad. And with this new phone, it's even better than it used to be.

On Monday, my grandma was trying to get something out of the freezer. And she was standing on her small footstool. She must have lost her balance and she tried to hold on to the part of the freezer door that holds things in it. It's like a bar? But it's held in with plastic. I'm explaining that terribly. But they are on freezer doors. I'm not sure if she was just using it for balance generally or if she grabbed it because she lost her balance, but it broke. And she fell. She didn't seem to be doing too badly that day or the next. She was having a bit of pain on Wednesday when we went to her hair appointment. And then today, it has seemed really bad. She lets out squawks and yells when she moves. She's had a hard time getting comfortable to be able to rest. And so I'm worried that she may have fractured a rib or something. I'm hoping not. I'm hoping she's just very bruised because at her age it can take a very very long time to heal. in the meantime she's in some terrible pain. But because of her heart condition, I always worry about what kind of pain medication she can really take. And she's having a hard time really moving around so I know getting her in to get x-rayed is going to be awful and I don't know when or how or where to get that done.

In order to qualify for an incentive at work, I've been working some overtime. I have to get in a certain number of hours in a certain time frame in order to qualify for the extra bonus amount of money. And so that also makes things more challenging because I have to be at work more so I'm just not as available. And I'm only through the first of two weeks of it. Next week is going to be even worse. Very long days. I'm not looking forward to it at all. Hopefully the money will be worth it.

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it was a mutual rejection

So this morning, I went for my interview at the insurance company. I went through two information/orientation sessions before this. It sounds like something that I could see myself wanting to do... just not yet. Not right now. And the dude agreed that financially, I'm not in a position to do this anyway. So we more or less mutually rejected each other. But he gave me his card and invited me to call him when/if I'm more in a position to pursue it. This was more or less how I hoped it would go.

Now I'm going to go through as much of my Indeed saved list as I can before work. And I think I would like to eat something. So maybe I'll try to make time to cook some delicious breakfast foods too.

Last night, I somehow got the idea to see if my old angelfire site was still online. It is, and it's ridiculous. It felt like a bit of a time capsule. I was looking at my old journal entries, pre-LJ and pre-blogging. I don't know if now me would have been able to stand then me. I worried about a lot of stuff that I probably shouldn't have worried about. Also, my then-boyfriend was a serious jerk! Why did I not see that??

I was trying to go through it on my phone though, which was difficult with the way I had it designed. So many frames! I'll have to pull it up on a bigger screen when I have the time.
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frustrating lack of time

There are so many things that I need to get done. And that my g-ma needs me to get done for her. And no time to do most of it. There are about 19 jobs that are currently saved in my indeed list (some of them for over a week) to be applied for. I have 3 jobs that I did apply for that also have necessary assessments to go along with them that I need to complete. My grandma, her cats, and her dog all have no food. I have needed to do laundry for weeks. Maybe even a couple months now. My house is filthy. I need household items from the store (laundry soap, hand soap, cleaning supplies, etc.) I have a bunch of training to get through for this side job I picked up recently.

Also, I'm hungry, and have been migrainey for the last few days. Complete with recurring aura. Fucking fantastic.

Also also, I talk to unpleasant and/or stupid assholes all day.

In about an hour, I leave to start my day of talking to assholes.
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So much for that life list

It would seem that my resolve to go back to daily journalling lasted all of one day. I have a computer at home again now so perhaps I can get back to it. I'm always torn when I take long breaks from writing. Do I try to play catch-up? Do I just pick up with now and add in relevant stuff if need be? That's usually what I end up doing.

Where I am right now, generally:

  • Working full time (40 hours/week)
  • Working part time (8 hours/week)
  • Trying to run a photography business (just picked up my first client for this year last week. eesh.)
  • Just picked up another part time gig (commission only, sort of sales)
  • Tending to g-ma things (she was recently in the hospital again and it was really bad and really scary. She's scheduled for a pacemaker, which also scares me, on the July 24th.)
  • Searching for new jobs to hopefully allow me to work less and still live and stuff
  • Thinking about gardening (bought plants. they are still in their store-pots on my porch. also planning Biscuit Memorial Catnip Garden, hopefully to be started/planted on what would have been his 7th birthday (July 8th))

Today I am working, applying for jobs, sending off last week's session's proofs to print, and going shopping for cat food for g-ma's cats.

I have thoughts about photography stuff but it will mostly be me complaining about not having enough time or money and I'm not sure I want to bother. Wait. Yes, I kinda do.

So in order to make my business successful, I really need to put a lot more time and money into it. But working so much means that I don't have enough time to put into it and life makes it so that I don't have enough money to put into it. If I could do better with the business, I might be able to do that more and work the other jobs less but how am I ever to find out at the rate things are going?? This is tiring and frustrating and ugh.
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life list

Typing this out on my phone isn't ideal but beats not typing it out at all.


I decided to start a life list and one of the items is to go back to daily journalling. So here goes. Entries may be brief, phone typing and all. But I'd like to have at least some documentation of my life. I'll wonder some day.


Yesterday I took my g-ma to the credit union since our attempt the day before was a failure. Their servers were down so there was little they could help us with. Yesterday was much more successful.


I picked up Mikale first, after having tom wake him up. We went to g-ma's, then the CU, then Kroger to buy money orders, lottery tickets, and a few grocery items.


Got back and she remembered that she had no dig food and needed envelopes for bill mailing. So I dragged Mikale with me and off we went to Family Dollar.


That left me just enough time to go home and eat, quickly shower, and go to work.


I got home last night and caught up on True Blood. Stayed up too late.


I woke up today with a headache. Accidentally poked a hole in Biscuit's new fluid bag so I'll have to open another new one tomorrow, which wastes three days of fluid. Grrr.


I went back to bed but foolishly didn't take drugs first so when I finally got up at 12:30, my head still hurt. So I had drugs, coffee, and food. It helped a little.


Work now. ugh.

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It is hot again today. I need to go to the store to buy cat food. And I should probably go and buy cream for my coffee. I don't want to do either of these things. Because I will sweat a lot. But ugh. Both need to be done. The kitty food especially. Maybe taking a shower will help me feel less gross.
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current residence

So it looks like Billy is getting the 6 months redemption. Which is good. Because that will mean I have time to find somewhere to live! I'm down as a tenant. But at this point, no proof of renting has to be shown.