I was supposed to bring money today for making prints. I don't actually have any though. So I didn't bring any. Oh well.

I need to find more landscape opportunities.

I have quite a to-do list and I hope to take care of some of it today.

I spent another 3 hours in the poto lab yesterday. I printed another contact sheet for my first roll, printed the Bonnie double exposure picture, developed my holga roll, printed a contact sheet for it, and printed one of the pictures from it. I want to go do some more stuff today but I also have other things I should do so I don't know if i will.


Ok time for class to start.

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I'm actually ready for my class (I think, anyway, as far as I['m remembering). I came here yesterday and worked in the lab for another 3 hours. I made a few contact sheets and a couple more prints. I can tel I'm going to get hooked and need to set myself up with a darkroom. I think I'll go for lab time today too.

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I need to start actually looking at my to-do list. It's been helpful to have it to an extent.... but I still don't get nearly enough done.

Stil and hour and a half of class to go. I need to borrow a CD from somone in class. Someone sitting ahead of me has a whole stack. Looks like a good candidate to me.

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so tired. so little sleep. so much to do.

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VoicePost 234K 1:02

“I like the way some schools are just kind of.. ho-hum about the way they're run and they're not all strict. So I went down to the office and they told me that they weren't sure if there would actually be anyone in the room or if the room would be locked or not but if there wasn't anyone there to just take a break or a lunch or something. There isn't anyone here but the room was unlocked so that's fine. Then (?)... I dont know... people always look at me like I don't know what I'm doing- I mean sometimes I don't- but, still... I don't like to be looked at like that. A woman asked me "is this your first time subbing?" "God no!" I've been doing this for 4 years... do I really look that inept?... after doing this for 4 years? That's kinda sad. So anyway, I'll be taking my break for the next... twenty... five minutes? Yup, 25 minutes before they get back and have nap time. And then I'll be napping. *They'll* be napping, I won't be. So I'll still have some more time after that until about 1:15 and then it's snack time. Gotta love kindergarten!” Transcribed by: crushedglass

I sound all stuffed up in this.... and growly voiced. I didn't feel like I was but I dont think I normally sound stuffy and gravelly so I must be a little. It went alright. They should pay more for kindergartens though. :)

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its irritating when I say to someone that I substitute teach... but that I am *NOT* a teacher nor do i wish to be one (pretty clearly put, no?) and then their next question is, so what grades to you teach?

ugh.

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ok so anyway... I was in the same classroom that I've been in several times... nice enough kids. SMI.
and they had swimming today and so I took two of the kids down (cause the other two that would be going were both menstruating (glad I wasnt on bathroom duty for them today)) and Carol (the swimming lady who I may or may not have mentioned before... if I did I said that I dont think she likes me and that she acts like she thinks I'm an idiot) told me it was fine for me to just leave them there as long as I was back when I was supposed to be... so I came back when she said and they weren't quite ready and she started talking to me and she asked me if I had just graduated (why, I dont know) and I said yeah and she asked if I had any job prospects and I told her no and that I wasn't planning on teaching as I hadn't gone for teaching. she asked what I *had* gone for and she gave me that look that people tend ot often give me when I tell them I got my degree in french. and she asked me what I was planning on doing with that. and I explained to her that it wasn't my intention to do anything with it I only ended up with french because I ran out of time to decide and I had to pick *something* or quit going since I had run out of general classes to take. and since I was already taking french classes to learn it french it ended up being. (insert second or third "you are an idiot" look from Carol here) and she asked me something about hadn't I ever talked to a counselor about any of this and I said no that I actually hadn't seen one at all...a nd she said not even in high school. and I told her that I had talked one then a little at least cause thats how I ended up at central... I had forgotten to do any college things and so she had brought me in and sat me down and made me fill out a central application. and since its the only app. I filled out. Central it was. (insert many more of those looks throughout)
and then she goes and gets snotty. and asked me, when I go shopping do I have friends pick out my stuff for me or do I actually make decisions on my own.

big grrr to that.
I thought it was kinda bitchy.
it has nothing to do with my decision making. I just havent found the path thats for me yet. is that a crime? I mean seriously. I dont think there's any reason why I had to figure it out yet. and I didnt know before college, as is the case for some lucky enough people. but I was just following the path I had been taught was the one to follow. you finish high school and then you go to college. what else was I supposed to do? it was just the thing I had always thought I was supposed to do. and its not like me having a degree in something useless is a useless thing.

so anyway. grr

I told her that no, it had nothing to do with decisions. I'm fully capable of making them. I just don't know what exactly I want to be doing yet, that I'm very creative and I plan on taking more classes to explore some more of my interests.

and she asked me what my parents do and then kind of sniffed when I answered.

and I just wondered. what the hell?
no one ever told her to talk to me. and its not like shes ever acted any differently about me. Ive told you (this was in an email to Steve) before that she seems like she doesnt like me and always acts like she thinks I'm incredibly stupid.
so why talk to me?

ok end of rant.

other than that my day was good... quiet, easy, andf I got to watch most of an Olsen twins movie (!)

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Currently feeling: grumpy
Currently hearing: arrogant worms - stalker girl

Monday I should have worked... but when I got the call I had only gotten 3 hours of sleep...
it would have been a 3 day assignment.. and later I was thinking... dammit what was I thinking! that would have been more than $200 and I could use that!

ah well...

so I didn't do much with the rest of the day... played with Mikale, played online...
later in the evening I got a call to sub today for my band/math kids... so I went to Kroger to buy candy for them... (glad I got the call the day before)
and I still ended up staying up too late... I was reading stuff on the bust boards and made a webpage to show some stuff to a girl on there
I made a bingo game for the kids today and that took a little while...
and I was talking to Alex... he's pretty good to talk to... I like him.


today came way too quickly... but it wasn't *too* bad...
6th grade band was actually pretty good for a change... they even managed to quietdown and sit still (mostly) to play bingo... yay for candy bribes...
7th grade band was awful though. they really sucked...
it is the last week for them though. and it really showed today. they just couldnt handle themselves at all...

and the rest of the day was ok

the girl I usually get into it with was ok. I find its much easier to deal with her if I just allow her to be a brat if she feels like it. she doesn't take it too far that way. she's worse if I try to say anything... then she goes into super bitch mode and just gets way more attitude than is really worth my time or effort ro deal with.

I don't know how much more I'll be working for the rest of the year. I'm pretty sure the Millet center still has to go through the 11th or 12th.. so theres potential to work there I guess...

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Currently hearing: Feeder - High

I've had this teachers classes a bunch of times... he has 3 band classes and 2 math classes...

so I got there and got up to the room and it was only after kids started coming in that I found out that there was an adjusted schedule today... no one even bothered to tell me in the office...
so there was no advisory, they just went straight to !st hour instead... then the schedule was adjusted throughout the day... they were having student recognition assemblies (one for each grade) and I didn't end up having to go to any of them cause of how my schedule worked out...
and this was fine with me since the last assembly I went to there was super boring...

so I had 1st hour math and they were more lively than usual... so much so that a teacher from the classroom next door came over to yell at them and tell them that her class couldnt even get their reading done it was so loud...
and then I had 6th grade band 2nd hour, and 7th grade band 3rd hour...
and I had both classes playing bingo... and oddly enough they were far more cooperative than i thought they would be..
and now I owe some of them candy the next time I'm there but thats fine with me it was worth it just to not have them bitching about how boring it is in there..

I dont even have 6th grade play usually cause they wont. they say they want to and then instead of paying attention they all just start loudly playing their instruments doing their own thing and its awful. so I dont even bother any more...
7th grade usually does play ut I gave them the option to play bingo and most of that wanted to do that instead... so thats what we did.

then I had 4th hour math and they pretty much did their own thing... theres a fat kid in there who is usually pretty good but today he had this apple shaped squishy bouncyball and kept throwing it even after I asked him a bunch of times not to... he almost lost it a couple of times playing with it next to the window...
so after asking him yet again to stop throwing it I went over to him intending to take it away but he put it in his pocket... so i told him if it came out of his pocket again I'd throw it out the window myself :p

ok so I probably wouldnt have... but I wanted to..
bugs me when they throw stuff
and *really* bugs me when they ignore me...

other than that it went pretty smoothly... the last class is 8th grade band and all they ever do is chill... and then I got to come home... that class got out at 1:26 and I was home shortly after... yay to that.

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Currently feeling: good
Currently hearing: Shades Of Blue - Oh How Happy

first entry in a long time... hopefully I'll be able to keep up better

worked today... Carrollton High school.
I am pleased to say that they didn't suck at all

math classes and technology classes...
the math classes had worksheets and actually did them. or at least didn't make much noise if they weren't doing them
and the technology classes had student aides and they pretty much got things going...

I wrote a letter, drew stationary, and in one class talked to some kid for a while...
and even got to go online a little bit... finally a school without just about everything blocked. so that was nice too...

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Currently hearing: Metallica-Nothing Else Matters